Here I am. It’s 10:18 pm. I just downed so much wine for a quick buzz. To kick in soon to knock me out. To kill pain mostly.
I’m buzzed. My little dog is at my feet.
All I can think about is how I fuck things up in my life.
I’ve lost every girl I’ve ever loved. Even if it’s because they cheated on me, they weren’t happy……because of me.
Because of me. Because of me. 47 years of pain. Pain. Fucking pain. Fucking pain. 47 fucking years.
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So there I was 