The letter to my wife

Hi Jamie, I don’t know what time I’ll be there Saturday and possibly Sunday. Depending on how long it takes. I will get to that later in this email. The snow this morning. I hope you made it to work safely. I always worry about you. I heard it happen, but I didn’t know what […]

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Struggling

I am struggling to keep it together today. I’m a soldier. I have to play the facade. That I’m tough and my life is rock solid with no cracks. In reality, I’m crushed into million tiny pebbles that just got hit by a sledgehammer. My ride to work consisted of me sobbing. Feeling nauseous. Feeling […]

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Anxious

It’s Friday. The day before I have to move out of our home. I have to move out so you and your boyfriend can carry on without me in the way. I feel nauseous already. I don’t know how I’m going to get through tomorrow. I don’t know how. I’m scared. I’m sad. I devastated. […]

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Snow

I woke up this morning. Looked out the window and saw snow. My first thought went to worrying about you getting to work safely and the kids to school safely. Then my thoughts went to the morning of February 9. We were in the middle of a snowstorm. I took Jeff to the ferry. Not […]

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Calm

Today we texted a lot. About business. I was still angry. Somehow, I didn’t lash out as much and I sobbed for a bit in my office. I even apologized to you tonight for giving you a hard time about a few things. I don’t know that I’ll ever stop loving you. I wish I […]

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Time

I slept mostly through the night. It’s amazing how exhausting an argument can make you. I was emotionally exhausted. It felt good to let you know I knew everything. I was tired of keeping it to myself. You had to know that you didn’t get away with anything. I needed you to know that. Especially […]

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Emotionally Drained

I had to contact you about bills today. I tried to stay calm and not tell you all the things I know. But I felt like you were playing me. So I just let it out. To sum it up… Don’t Fucking talk to me. Don’t Fucking call me. I know you guys already fucked. […]

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